Writer's Block

What bores you?

Being autistic, I struggle with communication, social cues, eye contact, facial expressions and reciprocating with others especially when it involves small Talk. Boring!!

Unless it’s a topic of interest or of intelligence I can often drift off into my own head space. This completely removes my attention from my environment and I am stuck in my own intriguing thoughts. I have inappropriate facial expressions at times that don’t match with the energy of the room. This is because I’m reacting or responding to my thoughts not the conversation others are engaging around me.

I often appear to be stand off ish, rude, and uninterested. That is not the case most of the time. When it’s small talk I don’t realize how I may appear in a socially interacting situation. I don’t ever purposely come off this way. It’s who I am.

People always try to tell me how to be or try to change me or “fix” me. The truth of the matter is, I’m not broken. I’m autistic. There’s no cure, pill or magic wand that will ever change who I am. Which is an intelligent, talented, special individual.